July 1950 – July 1953, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
1. He is drawn to attractive women – even if it is not to search for a mate. All through life i would be subject to a physical, hence animal jealously of other attractive women – always afraid that a shorter girl, one with better breasts, better feet, better hair than i will be the subject of his lust, or love – and i would always be miserably aware that i had to live up to his expectations – or else, someone else would. – A woman, confined to the home, doesn’t have the opportunity to feed her ego on attractive men.